Ahhh I think I finally found it. My motivation to get myself back on track. I've been on a steady decline (or shall I say incline on the scale) lately.
What did it take?
Standing in the dressing room trying on strapless bras for my friend's wedding on Saturday. Nothing like seeing your belly hanging out in bad lighting to get you to the salad trough.
It's a good thing I had grocery shopping on my to do list after the "buy a bra" experience.
Healthy food shopping :check:
Healthy food cooked for dinner :check:
Healthy food made for lunch :check:
4 mile run (with some walking) :check:
Oh yes, I have not run in two months except for the 2 5k's I ran. When I finished my last half marathon I was starting to really not like to run. It was feeling like such a chore. I think I was just a bit worn out.
I am finally to the point where I want to run again. Sadly it took two months to get there but when I went out last night I remembered how when I run my brain works through things, how it feels good to push myself to keep running when I want to quit, how even though it hurts a little, it really does feel good.
And I'm not going to lie I like seeing that calorie burn. I think I'm finally about ready to invest in a Garmin or some sort of watch to track my calories. I think that will help motivate me more too, if I can see how much I am actually burning instead of an estimated amount.
I definitely need to buy some new running shoes. All my callouses are gone and I could feel ever rub and blister starting when I ran last night.
So here it is, 20 pounds to my goal weight. (Up about 15 pounds from my lowest-which my mind can not seem to stop reminding me about).
I tried on my bridesmaid dress this morning because I've been worrying I won't be able to get it zipped up but it zips up just like it did the last time I tried it on. Just fine. Funny how we get ourselves all worked up for nothing.
Here's to keeping my shit together for the next 20 pounds. There are lots of events going on but I need to stop using them as an exuse to eat crap. There is some kind of "event" almost every day and every weekend. Time to get back to just making good choices and loving myself more.